Not sure where to start...or even if it's worth talking about at this point. Just like everything in life, this weight loss journey has had plenty of ups and downs. The formula is simple: 1) quit eating junk, 2) smaller portions of real foods, and 3) move more. For me though, I tend to ignore those easy rules and instead opt for the "delicious" foods from a drive through or casual restaurant in lieu of a healthy prepared meal at home. I stay so busy that I use it as an excuse to not exercise and to go through drive through windows on the way home. Instead of picking the low calorie or smaller menu item, I go for the bacon cheese option....but of course add the diet soda on the side. Obviously, more downs have been had as of late.
I start each day with the best of intentions. I go to bed most days with the worst of regrets. Of course my thoughts then go back to the bad example I set for my kids. My body tells me what trouble I am in by having pain in my knees and hip, breathing heavy after a set of stairs and seeing the signs of poor circulation in my legs. Yet I continuously ignore all of that and succumb to everything bad that I know I shouldn't be doing when it comes to healthy eating and living.
Since I was 4 years old, 31 years now, I have almost continuously been on a diet or weight loss program, yet have only really had one successful long term go at it when I was about 13. As an adult now, I know that a lifestyle change is the only way to achieve success. Unfortunately I cannot, as of yet, let go of my old demons that I give into regarding food and exercise.
So instead of this blog being a source of motivation and venting, it has become a page I avoid due to there are more negative's I have to share than positives. It is for that reason that I will not be updating this blog until I get my stuff together. One day I hope to come back to this blog and share the wonderful story of how me and the family reached our weight loss goal, or at least that we are on the right track. Until then though, I appreciate all the well wishes and positive feedback has gotten over the last several months. It truly does mean a ton to us! Fear not, I have not given up. When I wake up tomorrow, God willing, I will again start the day with the expectation to avoid eating out, sticking to my healthy packed breakfast and lunch and maybe even go for a walk after visiting my mom at the hospital. I want to be stronger than my temptations and can only keep believing that I will defeat the next one.
Take care friends, hopefully I will be talking to you again soon. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Mike
